sure i'm okay.....

Actually I'm gonna take a break from writing bout sports and all the superficial stuff that doesn't really matter.
I may seem like everything is fine and I'm just chillin at home, being a lozy bum and not doing shit with my life.
On the surface this is true.

I guess what I'm really trying to say is that I've been totally drained of any energy to motiviate myself. After high school and a difficult year of college, I've found sanctuary in my room. Why is it so hard for me to go get a job? I'm terrified of a new situation.

It doesn't help that I'm a worrier who takes on my friends problems. Now I love my friends, and I'll always be there for them when they need someone to listen to. ALWAYS.
But I don't know all of the answers! I don't know most of the answers for my own sanity, how in the hell can I help you? I can't be someone's "guardian angel" and guide them through every little problem. I've no energy left to take care of myself.

Now this isn't all of y'all just a few(2). But I can't burden the rest of you of the mental struggles that others have put on me. I know that's what friends are for, but I don't like passing that type of stuff on.

I guess that's why I keep this blog....so maybe y'all can see that when I say I'm okay....most of the time I'm not.


ACC-7 Big 10-2 nuff said!