think of me....

i guess there's no point in being pissed off at people if they don't know it. i feel like i might spin out of control again, despite the fact i paid for my own eye exam and new glasses......WITH MY OWN MONEY. soon i'll be paying rent, and hopefully insurance, in addition to my portion of the cell phone bill.

i don't even think i can describe how i feel any better than i have in the past. but i do wanna say i'm sick and fuckin tired of bein fuckin dissapointed in people who i put trust in. other people may just let that shit slide, but i don't. it's not funny, and it's not excusable 9 times out of 10. i'm sick of fuckin excuses for unnecessary BULLshit that could be avoided, including getting my hopes up for no damn reason. i've been thru that enough with my father, i don't need it from my friends too.